Forever Love

Do you remember, last week, a friend of mine passed away.
The story was: he died because of a motorcyle accident. Gosh, he's soo young. Wel, actually, he planned to fly to Perth to see his boyfriend on the 24th or 4 days after the accident. The flight was already booked, the visa was already issued. Poor them, they meant spending a holiday together.

Since then, I keep thinking and wandering what will it be... que serra, serra ... yes, what will be will be. The future is not ours to see.


Another story is about my Om Yatno and Tante Siti... they are celebrating their 50th Aniversary today. Ofcourse all relatives are invited to celebrate this golden moment in a huge yet decent party. Sons, daughter, children-inlaws, grandchildren, aunt, uncle, cousin, nephew, name it everybody's there.

Don't you want to be like them? Grow old together, having a long life love... till death do us part.

And, would it be wonderful if we keeping what's already belong to us, keeping what we already have? Hu-uh.... The future's not ours to see.... that's why I 'm trying to keep it. Doing the best that I can to keep this long distance relationship, between me and EG, works. Hu-uh.... my feeling tells me that there's a problem with him right now. He is no longer keep SMS-ing me in everytime, things that I don't really like. He is no longer keeping attention from me by doing childish things, that sometimes irritates me. He no longer asking me where am I, what am I doing, whom am I going with... No more his good night SMS or happy morning SMS. He's no longer in his stand by possition beside his cell phone so if I call him, he would pick it up immediately. Infact, I don't hear any news from him this one whole day.

I'm missing him.

Yep, sometime we don't realize our precious things until one day The Lord try to take it away from us. Are you grateful enough today for the love you already have? You should be grateful today, because today's love is what makes your love will be great in the future

Counting Holidays

last days in the "A" hospital...
nearly closing to the "D" day, when I'm going to resign, feel very lazy. The more I near to the "D", the more not-fun I feel my self working.

It was on the 25th of December... yes, I have to work on this national holiday... huhuhu. I know I don't celebrate Christmas... but hey, this is a holiday, and I deserve one right? Especially with my position in the hospital --as dokter tetap-- But what can I do? None of my colleague can work on the day of 25th. So... jadilah saya bemper.


Well... I think having a shift on the Christmas day, is not the only thing that makes me feel very lazy these days. Maybe the other thing that makes me feel ... suntuk ... is because that I have to start having a night shift on the 1st of January 09 in RSCM. Hu uh... the Chief text messeging me yesterday ... "nu, angkatan lu mulai jaga tgl 1 januari 09 pagi ya. 2 orang" ... Damn ... I was hoping that we (me and my collagues of the newe residents of neurology) can start our shift on the Emergency Dept. after the hospital orientation on the 9th of January. So I have to prepare the uniform and other utilities. There goes my other holiday .... pfuiihhh

Actualy, going back to school should be fun. And yes, I have dreaming it. But the thing that makes me on the bad mood is the sudden acknowledgment of the residency. huhuhu... there goes my holiday.

Naaaaaa..... Or maybe I'm just being exaggeration. Actualy, still have some holiday after the night shift on the 1st: which on 2nd-6th of January... yippie...

(the late) Adit

a friend just past away yesterday

a very shocking news, that until now i can't believe he's no longer with us.

many things we've gone through... kenangan di Semarang, Jogja, Bandung, Bali, Jakarta. Dari dia gw belajar banyak hal. Diantaranya adalah menolong orang yang membutuhkan di sekitar kamu tanpa melihat latar belakang, dalam keadaan apapun, dengan cara apapun yang kamu mampu.

yes, he is a bad boy, but a good one. A very good.. indeed

farewell my friend

why

Tadi siang gw sempet memejamkan mata di kamar istirahat dokter.
Mimpi itu terjadi lagi... I dream he kiss me

Dulu pernah mimpi kayak gini juga... dan setelah itu gak lama kemudian dia telp.

Dan hal itu terulang kembali. Dia telp lagi...

Why?

Permulaan

Life will be different...
Hari ini ketemu sama kakak2 kelas

Unofficially, dimulailah hidup sebagai residen.
"bismillahirrahmanirrahim"

Perpisahan

akhirnya perasaan itu muncul juga.
Gak nyangka lho...

Walau cuma sebentar gw gabung di RS ini, tapi rasanya berat sekali ninggalin perawat2 dan bidan2, dan temen2 yang udah terlanjur dekat di sini.

Lucunya perasaan itu muncul setelah gw diperkenalkan dengan pengganti gw.

First imperssion, gw kurang yakin. Not about his competency, I'm sure he's very skillfull as a general practitioner, namun lebih tentang attitude dia.

Bagi gw bekerja di rumah sakit, apalagi sebagai dokter ruangan, haruslah membumi. Perawat dan bidan akan bekerja lebih semangat, senang, dan terpacu untuk memberikan pelayanan yang terbaik untuk pasien, jika dokternya juga mau "gabung" sama perawat dan bidan2.
Dari situ perasaan senasib akan muncul... dan kita bisa klop kalo kerja nanganin pasien.

Dari cerita2 senior, bidan, dan perawat, gak semua dokter kayak gitu lho...
dan gw berharap bisa disenangi sama bidan, perawat or paramedic lainnya... supaya kerjanya nyaman.

Nah, sekarang karena rasanya udah deket banget sama mereka.... Jadi, mau ninggalin mereka rasanya berat, dan khawatir kalo dokter selanjutnya gak bisa buat mereka betah/ nyaman kerja...


hmmm... mungkin berlebih ya?